Words.

I was, I am, I will be.

I just want to scream.

My friend group is lacking.
My home life is complicated.
My jobs are stressful and unsatisfying.
My body is getting bigger.
My love life is complicated.
My family is messed up and scattered.
My car is broken down.
My finances have me drowning.

I am suffocating.

I am losing.

Again…
and Again….
and Again….

but, I am supposed to keep fighting?

Whit flag, anyone? 

grrrrr

  • Do you like beer, pizza, cheese burgers, pork steaks, potatoes, corn on the cob etc.? They are loaded with fat and/or carbs. We have a suppliment that will take away 30% of the junk that you take in from these foods/drinks. I have been using it since mid april and have lost 20 lbs. and 2 pant sizes.
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      • Cass Schmaltz So… Did your facebook get hacked, or…?
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      • Shannon Mccarter Madzen Nope not hacked. I started with It Works on march 30, got my shipment in mid April and have gone from a size 20 to a 16 and lost 20 lbs using fat fighters after high carb and high fat meals. They remove 30% of the fat and carbs. I have also wrapped 3 times.
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      • Shannon Mccarter Madzen Have you tried our wraps cass?
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      • Cass Schmaltz I don’t believe that telling healthy people they need to be smaller is a good thing. I would rather have body acceptance than a body wrap.
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      • Julie Utley People can do what they want. Nothing wrong with wanting to lose weight here and there especially when you hit that mid 20’s metabolism plummet.
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      • Shannon Mccarter Madzen I am not telling anybody they need to be smaller and the body wraps are not for weight loss or getting smaller. They are all natural detox wraps and are extremely heathy that is why I’m doing this. It simply takes toxins away from your body. Detoxing is how I am losing weight and you can research it detoxing is very heathy.
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      • Cass Schmaltz research: http://www.bodylovewellness.com/2010/06/30/just-so-were-clear-some-fat-facts/
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      • Cass Schmaltz Realistically, you know that people want to be wrapped to lose weight or be smaller… That is the hook. That is what most women want… To hear about how many inches smaller they are.
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      • Julie Utley That list is kind of BS. Childhood obesity isn’t a problem because childhood life expectancy continues to rise? Every attempt to make kids thinner has failed? This while lost was badly written.
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      • Shannon Mccarter Madzen 
        So you see anywhere in my post that I have lost inches. And facts are facts I have lost inches lots of them. Once again I am not telling people don’t be fat I’m offering a healthy way to take toxins from you body not fat, toxins and as foSee More
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      • Julie Utley I personally don’t like the fat acceptance movement, I am an average sized female and anyone is getting discriminated against it’s me because we seemed to have stop caring about what normal looks like and representing it and seem to think it’s an awesome idea to promote huge women as normal and acceptable. We are a society of consumption and convenience and it shows, we don’t need to celebrate that.
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      • Shannon Mccarter Madzen Also, don’t get me wrong I was not saying that YOU need a wrap I was offering it to you if you wanted it. I think your gorgeous just the way YOU are I however do not feel the same for myself.
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      • Shannon Mccarter Madzen One more thing, I have been trying to get to a healthy weight for years. Being well over 200 lbs and 5’5” has caused me tons of health problems, fertility issues, heart issues, sleep issues, depression etc. I’ve been trying to lose weight for years unsuccessfully and this is the first thing that has actually worked.
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      • Cass Schmaltz 
        You can believe what you want. I am just trying to save some people to go through what I and so many people of all sizes have gone through. Ad’s all over my cousin’s facebook about losing weight, and seeing fat-phobia everywhere leads to thSee More
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      • Cass Schmaltz I am happy you found something that works for you, but it seems like it is your whole life… I see pictures of your beautiful kids here and there, but your basically an around the clock sales woman. That was my initial point in my first comment…
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      • Cass Schmaltz you’re***
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      • Julie Utley We were poorer than dirt and my mom managed to feed us right, not let us become lazy, and raise us to be confident. You don’t need a gym membership, poor excuses.
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      • Julie Utley Look, it’s unfortunate that there are unhealthy body images out there but either extreme is bad.
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      • Shannon Mccarter Madzen I am a sales women because I can’t afford my bills or anything fresh for that matter you don’t need a gym membership to exercise. I am a sales woman for these products because I believe in them and as for my beautiful children I post pictures of them all the time. The only it works pics I use are the ones that are already on here.
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update?

I am sad.

I am angry.

I am feeling pretty wild.

Most of all,

I just miss him more than anything in the world right now.

Spins.

The whole weekend was blurry..

I feel like the past year has gone full circle.

55 bucks went straight up my nose,

and I only eat anything of substance when stoned.

Maybe I should just be real with myself, and quit trying to keep it together when my soul is spinning out of control.

I have this urge to push everyone away, so no one will get hurt.

my eyes look bigger again.

my eyes look bigger again.